Whatifs - Shel Silverstein

Last night, while I lay thinking here,
some Whatifs crawled inside my ear
and pranced and partied all night long
and sang their same old Whatif song:
Whatif I'm dumb in school?
Whatif they've closed the swimming pool?
Whatif I get beat up?
Whatif there's poison in my cup?
Whatif I start to cry?
Whatif I get sick and die?
Whatif I flunk that test?
Whatif green hair grows on my chest?
Whatif nobody likes me?
Whatif a bolt of lightning strikes me?
Whatif I don't grow tall?
Whatif my head starts getting smaller?
Whatif the fish won't bite?
Whatif the wind tears up my kite?
Whatif they start a war?
Whatif my parents get divorced?
Whatif the bus is late?
Whatif my teeth don't grow in straight?
Whatif I tear my pants?
Whatif I never learn to dance?
Everything seems well, and then
the nighttime Whatifs strike again!

On your first birthday, when you blow out the candles, I wish a wish for you. May you never be plagued by Whatifs or Whymes. May you never have bad acne, or braces. May you never need glasses, and if you ever do need these things, you are confident in wearing them and never have a doubt. I hope you are brave and confident and courageous and kind. As I watch you shape into the man you will surely, one-day, become, I just pray that you never feel loss, never cry yourself to sleep, never have to worry. I pray that you will always be the happy child you are now. Just know that you are loved; From now until forever.

Happy first birthday, baby boy. I love you.

tags: birthdays

What do you think?

location: United States, Texas, Austin mood: melancholy music: Blue October - A Quiet Mind tags: photography

Your result for The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test ...

4- the Individualist

Thanks for taking the test !

you chose BY - your Enneagram type is FOUR (aka "The Romantic")

 

"I am unique"

 

Romantics have sensitive feelings and are warm and perceptive.

How to Get Along with Me

• Give me plenty of compliments. They mean a lot to me.
• Be a supportive friend or partner. Help me to learn to love and value myself.
• Respect me for my special gifts of intuition and vision.
• Though I don't always want to be cheered up when I'm feeling melancholy, I sometimes like to have someone lighten me up a little.
• Don't tell me I'm too sensitive or that I'm overreacting!

What I Like About Being a FOUR

• my ability to find meaning in life and to experience feeling at a deep level
• my ability to establish warm connections with people
• admiring what is noble, truthful, and beautiful in life
• my creativity, intuition, and sense of humor
• being unique and being seen as unique by others
• having aesthetic sensibilities
• being able to easily pick up the feelings of people around me

What's Hard About Being a FOUR

• experiencing dark moods of emptiness and despair
• feelings of self-hatred and shame; believing I don't deserve to be loved
• feeling guilty when I disappoint people
• feeling hurt or attacked when someone misundertands me
• expecting too much from myself and life
• fearing being abandoned
• obsessing over resentments
• longing for what I don't have

FOURs as Children Often

• have active imaginations: play creatively alone or organize playmates in original games
• are very sensitive
• feel that they don't fit in
• believe they are missing something that other people have
• attach themselves to idealized teachers, heroes, artists, etc.
• become antiauthoritarian or rebellious when criticized ornot understood
• feel lonely or abandoned (perhaps as a result of a death or their parents' divorce)

FOURsas Parents

• help their children become who they really are
• support their children's creativity and originality
• are good at helping their children get in touch with their feelings
• are sometimes overly critical or overly protective
• are usually very good with children if not too self-absorbed

More in detail

General characteristics

The desire to create and seek meaning is emphasized in the Individualist. They are emotionally driven, passionate people, who want to be recognized as special and distinguished from others. They are, at their best, compassionate, empathetic, and refined. This often leads them to artistic endeavors of various sorts, or alternatively, to relationships that would bring them intense feelings whether sublime or despairing. On the other hand, their emotional turbulances and excess fantasizing can cause difficulties with living in the moment, often wallowing in the past and obsessing over the future, chronic dissatisfaction and depression often result, as well as conflicts with others.

[edit] Motivations

Passion / Fixation: Envy

Basic Fear: "To have no identity and personal significance". Personal identity is felt tentatively by Fours, which they compensate by cultivating a fantasy or ideal self that would in one way or another define them. They fear ordinariness.

Basic Desire: 'To find themselves and their significance'. Fours heighten their experience with imagination and emotional reactions. They see beauty in suffering, and will hold on painful moods if those give them meaning.

Parental Orientation: Disconnected from both parents, since "neither can understand". Creates longing in self for a "good parent" - a saviour - who can understand them. It is not that fours do not want to express their feelings, they just want someone to discover them; and frequently make people work too hard to find out what they are.

[edit] Personal theme

From a very early age Fours felt singled out by others. They see the various personal qualities others have that are not given to them, which causes them to focus on absence, on differences and on personal alienation. They are the gray ducklings poked fun of by their bright-feathered peers and abandoned by their parents. They are the orphans and outcasts.

In time, however, they began to feel that they are singled out for a reason. They interpreted their alienation and suffering as evidence of their finer sensibilities. Even their personal defects, which in the beginning tormented them, are now worn as marks of pride. In their psychic recesses, however, there remains an emptiness longing to be filled by another and it is that emptiness, that tension between lack and fulfillment, which drives Fours in a search for meaning and personal identity. Unfortunately, given their fixations on fantasy and comparison with others, this search can often feel and become fruitless.

[edit] Wings

[edit] Fours with a dominant Three wing

When healthy they can be both successful and inspired. They leave a personal touch in all the works they do while maintaining some connection with the larger world. They enjoy public attention but are also committed to private self-exploration.

When more average they can be provocative and eager to make their place in the world, whether through art or life. Their emotional turbulances are more on the surface than the more withdrawn Fours with a dominant Five wing. Even though they want to withdraw, their desire to earn their place can keep them in the game. They place value on aesthetics, and in addition to working hard (the 3 wing), they can be self-indulgent, too. They can also resemble sevens in their love of luxury and pleasure. Unlike Sevens, however, they don't seek sensations just to have them, but rather as another accessory to their fantasy identity. They tend to "hide away" once the problems with self-image catch up with them. They can also be competitive, and feel like they have to prove themselves to have a place in the world. Their four "withdrawal" and three "achievement" motivators can create conflicting needs for them.

When unhealthy, they can have pronounced issues with self-image and shame. As much as they want to connect with others and feel good about themselves, their withdrawal, feelings of defectiveness, and inability to release feelings of longing can keep them stuck in painful situations.

[edit] Fours with a dominant Five wing

When healthy, they bring profound creativity and insights of an intrapsychic kind. Their emotions are more under the surface than Fours with dominant Three wing and more private modes of communication (such as writing) are preferred. They have intellectual as well as emotional insights and can often synthesize experiences into something intensely personal yet timeless.

When more average they are devoted to cultivation of a personal worldview, often by philosophical or artistic means. They are more likely than those with a dominant Three wing to be reclusive and out of touch with the greater social world and to compensate they may adopt unconventional or eccentric ways of life. They can be purposefully obscure and enigmatic in their expressions and then have an elitist and contemptuous view of those who failed to understand them. They tend to withdraw for prolonged periods under stress which can leave them further isolated. As a result they are prone to hallucinatory states and total alienation.

When unhealthy, they can inhabit a terrifying fantasy-world of their own creation. Their emotional torments are turned inward, causing severe depression and self-destructive thoughts. When average they may romanticize death but when unhealthy they may plunge into it.

[edit] Instinctual subtypes

Self-preservation

On the average levels, Self-preservation Fours are the most practical of the Four instinctual subtypes. They are very concerned with the mood, atmosphere and beauty of their surroundings, and can become tenacious in meeting those needs. They often have an aesthetic focus, are devoted to high-quality physical or emotional experiences, and can become frustrated if "the shades are off" their ideal. Some have a reckless streak, taking risks and playing with fate as a means to intensify their feelings. Others, while less adventurous, nonetheless fantasize about being consumed in some forms of risky affairs. Fours of this variant also have a heightened need for autonomy which can make them ambivalent and fickle in relationships.

Social

Social Fours are most characterized by a feeling of shame. They like to think of themselves as completely unique and one-of-a-kind, and can alternate between feeling socially inept and disdainful of others. They are somewhat more socially engaged than the other two subtypes, often by adopting "personas" of some sort that they know are idealized versions of themselves. They also identify with alternative groups that in one way or another reinforce their outsider status. They can, however, be easily overwhelmed socially and withdraw for long periods of time. When unhealthy, Social Fours are extremely self-conscious and can have trouble with even the most casual human encounters.

Sexual

Sexual Fours are emotionally intense and express themselves through relationships and active lives. They have a competitive streak, and their emotions toward another (especially their love interests) run the gamut from total devotion to feelings of burning hatred. They don't actually hate others, rather, they feel helpless and completely lacking in power to affect change in the relationship. They are also the "face" of romantic poets and tortured artists, working in fervour on their art in between their displays of empassioned loss. They typically lead unconventional lifestyles as a kind of personal statement. When stressed, Sexual Fours express their envy more openly and can act out by hurting themselves. Ideas of suicide become comforting to them when they are at their unhealthiest place.

[edit] Overview

Ego fixation: Melancholy
Holy idea: Origin
Basic Fear: Being commonplace
Basic Desire: To be unique and authentic
Temptation: To beat themselves up and withdraw
Vice/Passion: Envy
Virtue: Equanimity
Stress/Disintegration point: Two (Emotionally-overwrought Fours become obsessive and dissatisfied like unhealthy Twos)
Security/Integration point: One (Self-actualized Fours are idealistic and progressive like healthy Ones.)

mood: Meh.

For those of you not familiar with these... posts... they can tend to be depressing. Please don't read them if you can't handle that. And I don't want to hear all of the "Maybe you should go get help." comments. I know. But I also know what will fix this. They are going to tell me the same thing I tell myself everyday. With that said, here I go.

    Life, it seems, likes to give me all sorts of twists and turns. I'm not doing ok. Most people keep asking me, or assuming, that maybe I'm afraid of having a baby. No. I'm really not. I know that no matter what I do, as long as I try my best to educate him and love him, that he will turn out fine. That has nothing to do with why I'm so miserable. It seems like I'm no longer even keeping my head above water. Robert is doing fine at his job. He's making money, not enough money, but money. I'm trying to hard not to lose it. We have no car, no home, and a baby on the way. I know, everyone's gonna say, but you're staying with your mom. That's home, isn't it? No. No offense, it's not. It's not MY home. It's not. I always feel like an outsider. And it's no ones fault. No ones. They try really hard, but I feel like I'm in the way. And I am. But there's nothing I can do. There's just not enough room for us all. Robert and I (and soon, the baby) are going to be stuck in one room. One VERY small room. And it's hard. There is no way, not in a million years, that we'll ever make enough money for us to move out, it seems. If only I could find a car that they would let us pay on. But with the credit problems.... That's never gonna happen. Do you ever get a second chance at things? I mean really. I just need a fresh start. There is no way in the world that this arrangement is going to work. I've added and re-added and calculated and all I can see is that it'll be at least a year or so before we're even ok. Maybe two or so till we can move out. Mostly cause of the car thing. I have to come up with several thousand dollars to be able to get a car, and with a new baby... well, I see that NEVER happening. This isn't fair. And the worst part is that, with mom's new diagnosis, there's more stress. They can't afford to have us living here. Not with the meds and with the fact that babys catch things (germs and such) so easily. Mom's seriously in danger and we're not helping.  And mom's never gonna tell me to leave. Hell she's prolly never even considered it a possibility. I just know that this is not going to work. But it has to. Where else am I gonna go? Robert can't get a job anywhere else making this kind of money, and even if he did, he'd have no way to get there. And I can't get a job to help with the money thing till the baby gets here. I don't even know if I can get a decent paying job even afterwards. Ideally I need to be making 15 an hour. Oh, and to top all of the stress, I didn't get into school. My application was denied. FUCK!

Ok, I know why this stress is getting to me so badly. I have no one here. There is no one I can just talk to. There is no one I can just talk to. Or hang out with. Or anything. I can't get a break. And it's getting to the point where I don't want to eat, or for that matter, be awake. I can't keep my eyes open when Robert's at work. Not for more than an hour or so. I just want to sleep. And when he gets home? He sleeps, so I do too. I'm getting, like 16 or more hours of sleep a day and I can't seem to find anything that helps. I mean, if I had somewhere to go, or something to do. I dunno, friends, maybe this would be different. But the only person I have is Robert. And I can't go find anyone, cause I feel so guilty that I'm using their car. Besides, I can't afford to have friends. I don't have a way to hang out with them. They can't come over cause there is no room, and I can't go there with no transportation. And there's no money. And when it's Robert's days off, I am so lonely and depressed, that I don't want him to leave the room. He gets no alone time, cause I can't handle it, and it's driving him crazy. But he won't tell me no because he's so afraid I won't be ok. And the sad thing is... he's right. I won't be ok.  He's my only source of comfort. And I appreciate him so very much. I don't think he knows how much I love him. 

Sometimes I wonder if things will ever get any better...

If not, I'm not sure how we'll cope. But for now, I'm just going to try to be ok... at least for a little longer. I'm sorry I got all emo. Just...

Fuck it. I don't care.

mood: crappy

It's been.... meh... since the last time I posted. Of course, my plans for an awesome father's day went through the window. The internet site for the movies had the wrong time, so no one got to go. Later that evening, we went to Tib's for a gaming session and almost had an emergency room visit. Robert forgot his inhaler and we had to run and get it. Then Sunday, well, Sunday was a good enough day. We went for Chinese with Hollie's parents. It was fun, but I was SOOO carsick. I dunno what it is, but every time I get into a car that either Cam, Mom, me or Robert is driving, I'm fine. Anyone else? I'm so sick it's not funny. Monday was... uneventful... And today? Today has been... meh. I got up and still can't get a damn government official on the phone... no news there... Then I finally get things taken care of. We got my baby shower guest list done and I'm dreading it. Robert's mom has been such a livid bitch that I don't want to invite her... But I feel I must, as she is the grandmother(ish). It's not like she'll come, but I don't want to see that look in Robert's eyes again. Kind of a mix of disappointment and regret mixed with pure sadness. It's a very lonely look, and I think that he thinks I don't understand cause I have people there for me anytime. The thing is, he doesn't realize they're there for him, as well. But it's hard having your mother tell you that her life is ruined by your existence and that you aren't worth the time and effort it takes. I hate her for that. Ok, I'm getting pissed off, so lets drop that. I'm just going to stop writing for now. That just ruined my blogging mood....


Ugh!

location: Home mood: drained music: Hell is for Children - Pat Benetar

It's been a blah day already. Things aren't going the way they should be. I woke up to John yelling and screaming. I have no idea what that was about. Pregnancy has been a bitch. I feel like total crap. I've been drinking so much water lately that I feel as if my eyeballs are floating, but it's necessary considering I have been dehydrated. I started a blog yesterday on blogspot, but it has part of my life that I'm not ready to share with my close family on it, so I'm not planning on sharing the addy right now. I just got my computer up and working again. Yay. My room is clean, I have a new bed, and a fridge for those late night snack attacks. But still, the day's been blah. I think maybe I'll be getting some new music to combat said blues.

I'm taking the guys out for fathers day. I hope my dad likes the movie. Though, I know he is excited, it's hard to tell. Sometimes it feels as if I can't do anything right on that end, but I know it's not me; it's stress. Ugh.

I guess that's it for me today. Yesterday was blog like it's the end of the world. So I did. I didn't blog, cause if it's the end of the world, I'm gonna have MUCH better things to do than blog....

Lana

mood: blah

Ok, so I thought about it and I have decided to do a small bit of something for 10 people in my life that I want to say something to. And, no, sadly, I will not put names. However, there will be hints. If it's you, you'll know.

1. I love you more than you could ever possibly imagine. I really wish that one day you could feel what I feel every night when I hold you. Though, I guess it could be the same as the other way around; only less baby. Do you know that even when we argue, I smile cause I know that even when we're angry and frustrated; there's really no place I'd rather be. I'm gonna be sad that you're gonna miss my ultrasound. But I guess it'll do. You'll just have to find out later, won't you. And I know we get on each other's nerves; I just want you to know there is nothing in this world that comes close. And the sex isn't bad either, lol. I just want you to know, I hope this baby is anything like you. Maybe he/she'll have a chance at this hectic place.

2. I am looking forward to you sooo very badly. I know, being in womb at the moment, you can't read this. However, I just felt it should be known. We're waiting, little one.

3. Things are strained, aren't they? High School sucked. Neither of us behaved the way we should have. I forgive you. I forgive myself. I love you!

4. You are my happy place when everything is gray. I love you like a sister, even though you have one of your own. I promise, that if things go well, I'll be heading back to town to see you soon. And, honey, St. Patricks day may be my new favorite holiday! You are so ... It's taken me so long to write this. There isn't a word that sums you up. I love you, and you don't have to worry about anything. I am strictly hairogamous.

5. You bitch! You have done nothing for us. How can you take things you gave back? How could you sell something that you gave your son for Christmas? How could you blame your son for your fuck ups? How could you do any of this? You wanna know why I am so against you seeing your grandchild? I don't know if you can keep your hatred to yourself long enough to love anyone. I mean, you don't even love you. You don't love your son. How could you love my child? I just want you to know, this is your last chance. You fuck this up, and you will no longer be in my life.

6. You are amazing. There are a lot of words that could describe you, however, I think the one I came up with nailed it. I have never met you IRL, but I feel as if I've known you forever. We don't even talk much; I just know you'd be there if the need be. You are amazing.

7. My sister. My best friend. My "fuck you, I don't give a damn" girl. You are so much in such a small package. I miss you terribly and can't wait till I can see you again. Could I stay with you if I flyed in sometime this year? Of course. I know I could. Cause that's how we are. I love you. And I love your kids. And I love love love your unabashed ways. You are powerful. And I love it. Oh and tell the princess and the miser fan that I love them.

8. I am sooooo very sorry. I was a kid. I didn't mean to hurt you. How could I have? I was immature and so were you. I do still love you, as I will always love you. You were my first love. My first everything. And your friendship means so much to me. I'm sorry for the hurt that was caused. Do you forgive me? I find it hard to forgive myself without your reassuring words. Will I ever get them? I don't know.

9. You were always a mystery. I never knew what to expect, except for the antisocialness. We had our ups and downs and up and downs, but hell, we were young. It sucks you moved. And it sucks that you're going away when I am finally close enough to maybe visit. I know you'll know who this is for. And, no I'm not sending you naked MILF pics...lol

10. Oh, girl. What can I say? We were... stubborn. But I'm glad we can at least be casual friends again. Truce?

11. I love you in a way that's prolly not healthy, *grin* but it sure is fun! And I'm fiercely proud of you. You moved to NY and dealt with all of the bullshit. I think I might have crumbled, but you didn't. And to top it all, those b-day spanking... OUCH! Seeing you bent over a chair like that..... Don't get me started. lol. You are prolly the only person (sides my hubby) who I'd hold up above a trashcan, and talk to while you spewed. That was alot of liquor. And our first attraction... meeeeoooooww. Love you, you silly actor. I have faith that you will be big, someday. But at least know this. As corny as it sound, Jack, you're always big to me!

12. Why did I waste my time? No, you won't know this is about you. But how could you? You think you're wonderful.

13. My beautiful girl. What happened? I love you and I miss you. Things will never be the same, will they? I miss you at nine years old, cuddling with that damn doll (holly, I do believe) terrified beyond measure, both of us trying to fall asleep before the other so we weren't awake all alone. I love you, girly. I hope you know that.

Ok I'm done. That's it.

mood: nostalgic music: Meh tags: meh

Sorry, fyrecatt, I had to steal it...

Put your music player on shuffle. Press forward for each question. Use the song title as the answer to the question. Post on your blog.

Will I get far in life?
Stairway to heaven - Led Zepplin (teehee)

How do my friends see me?
Teenage Love Affair - Alicia Keys (O Rly?)

Will I get married?
Razzle Dazzle - Richard Gere (From the musical Chicago...)

What is my theme song?
Master Exploder - Tenacious D (LOL)

What is the story of my life?
Gangsta's Paradise - Coolio (OMG I'm so white I'm clear... that's funny)

What was high school like?
Magic Bus - the Who (giggles)

How can I get ahead in life?
The Freshman - Verve Pipe (HUH?)

What is the best thing about me?
Going Under - Evanescence (Ouch...)

How is today going to be?
Unemployed boyfriend - Everclear (OMG, I almost died. Here's you sign, ribbit)

What is in store for this weekend?
Angel - Sarah McLachlan (Aww, and I'm going to a funeral this weekend...)

What song describes my parents?
Life in the Fast Lane - Eagles (...)

My grandparents?
Rainy Day Woman - Bob Dylan (Wow.. to a tee)

How is my life going?
Freek a leek - Petey Pablo (Hilarious)

What song will they play at my funeral?
I saw the sign - Ace of Base (Blink, or maybe I didn't)

How does the world see me?
Run to You - Brian Adams ( That's sweet-ish)

Will I have a happy life?
Won't back down - Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers

Do people secretly lust after me?
Forsaken - Disturbed (Thanks...)

How can I make myself happy?
Hopelessly Devoted - Olivia Newton-John (OK...)

What should I do with my life?
It's been awhile - staind (Ouch again)

What is some good advice?
(Summer Magic) Ugly Bug Ball - Classic Disney Soundtracks

What is my signature dancing song?
Louisiana Saturday Night - Nitty Gritty Dirt Band (LOL)

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Twist - Korn (LOL)

What type of men/women do you like?
Beautiful Disaster - 311 (OMG teehee)

location: Austin mood: amused music: Uh hello? tags: funny

This is just cool... Thank you,
fyrecatt



You are an Artist
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Your appreciation of beauty, ability to think abstractly, and innovativeness make you an ARTIST.
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Never one to be tied to a particular way of doing things, you let your imagination guide you in discovering different possibilities.
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You would rather seek out new experiences than stick to your everyday habits, taking in as much of the world as possible.
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Your eye for beauty and your willingness to consider different perspectives make your creative efforts interesting—even though you may not realize this yourself.
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You prefer to think about things before voicing your opinion, considering a wide, diverse range of options.
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While there are forms and styles that you prefer, you tend to keep an open mind when it comes to your artistic preferences.
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You are curious about things, interested in the "why" more than the “how.”
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You have an active imagination that leads you express yourself in a distinct way.
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Your independent streak allows you to make decisions efficiently and to trust your instincts
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You're not afraid to let your emotions guide you, and you're generally considerate of others' feelings as well.
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You tend to do things on the spur of the moment, not sticking to a set schedule.
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You do your own thing when it comes to clothing, guided more by practical concerns than by other people's notions of style.
If you want to be different:
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Be more open to risks in your creative efforts, and don't be quick to dismiss the praise of others.
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Think about how attention to detail may help you be more sure of yourself.
how you relate to others
You are Advocating
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Being social, empathic, and understanding makes you ADVOCATING.
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Some people find being around others exhausting—but not you! You are energized by spending time with friends, and you are good at meeting new people.
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One of the reasons you enjoy conversation as much as you do is that you often learn about yourself while talking things out with a friend; you realize things about your own beliefs while discussing them with others.
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You have insight into what others are thinking and feeling. This ability allows you to be happy for others, and to commiserate when something has gone wrong for them.
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You are highly compassionate, and being conscious of how things affect those close to you leaves you cautious about trusting others too hastily.
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Despite these reservations, you are open-minded when it comes to your worldview; you don't look to impose your ways on others.
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Your sensitivity towards others' plights contributes to an understanding—both intellectual and emotional—of many different perspectives.
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As someone who understands the complexities of the world around you, you are reluctant to pass judgments.
If you want to be different:
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While it's important to think about others, don't forget to take some time for yourself, and occassionally to put yourself first.
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Take some time to spend with a few close friends; although it's difficult to find people to trust, it's worth the effort.
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When you have great ideas, it can be hard to relinquish control, but it can also feel good to take the pressure off and enjoy someone else leading the way.
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location: Austin mood: Headache... Ugh... music: NONE! tags: personality, quiz

What's Your Political Philosophy? created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Libertarian Libertarians believe that you have the right to live your life as you wish, without the government interfering, as long as you don’t violate the rights of others. This translates into strong protections for privacy and property rights, and a weak to non-existent social safety net. Libertarian 80% New Democrat 75% Green 65% Old School Democrat 60% Pro Business Republican 40% Foreign Policy Hawk 35% Socially Conservative Republican 25%

So, finally, I make my move to Austin. Things have been rough. Very rough. We didn't think that we were gonna get down here, than finally we get a car rented. Thank you Holly's Dad.

Nursing a 7 day old puppy is getting me ready for the total annihilation that is growing within my body. Children, the ultimate sexually transmitted disease. LOL. Yes, since I have been absent from LJ, I have found out I am pregnant. Due sometime early October.

That's it for now, I'm too tired to do much else.

Here's a quiz I stole from my mother's page.

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         <table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='75' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>75%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Green</font></p></td><td>
         <table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='65' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>65%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Old School Democrat</font></p></td><td>
         <table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='60' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>60%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Pro Business Republican</font></p></td><td>
         <table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='40' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>40%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Foreign Policy Hawk</font></p></td><td>
         <table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='35' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>35%</font></td></tr><tr><td><p><font face='Arial' size='1'>Socially Conservative Republican</font></p></td><td>
         <table border='1' cellpadding='0' cellspacing='0' width='25' bgcolor='#dddddd'><tr><td></td></tr></table></td><td><font face='Arial' size='1'>25%</font></td></tr></table>
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